I forgot how it felt to fall in love all over again…it’s been ages since I’m feeling the goose bump down my spine every time I hear or accidently ease dropping on someone calling out the same name of my loved one.
Yes…I know…L.O.V.E, four-letter word that make people to gaze with their eyes wide open and awe in adoration or even cry loudly when experience out of it. It is the magic of the word that brings people from every nation, tribe, color, and race together as one when the subject comes up.
L.O.V.E is the warm feeling, adoration when seeing person or something that lift our heartbeat. The early morning call, the sweet sound of sweet kisses of good night from the other ends where our beloved is.
Our beloved. Is that person your first love? My first love…I someone wonder how people could remember who their first love is? Am I careless for not wanting to remember who is her first love is? Or am I just merely trying to erase that awful memory of my first love, because it isn’t like the one I read in fairytale about how mesmerizing it is. I am questioning those people out there, are you allowed to have more than one first love? Or am I the confused one because why is it call the first love, because it is the first time ever you fall in love. I seriously can not remember my ever first love…I think myself as a woman who have given her love and adoration to some and now here in the mature stage year of my life I just forgot how is it to be in love and to fall for one…is it due to my kindness of sharing my love to many? Or is it due that I hesitant to look for one or believe that falling in love with the right person or many people said their SOULMATE do exist in this whole wide world?
Soul mate, when you read and hear the word soul mate how many percentage of marriage couple do marry their soul mate and are we allowed to have more than one? How many percent of those people who pray and hope since their childhood for a soul mate do find one? Or when you miss out on that soul mate of yours will you ever believe that your soul mate will encounter with you again?
I just knew that at this stage of my life I am shouting to myself the song the ending of SOMEBODY TO LOVE, “Can anybody find me somebody to love”. The old people said, never give up when you are trying to find something worth fighting for, you have to keep fighting for it till you are out of your breath. I am not sure I am the kind of person that is willing to fight for something, especially for love. I am probably will do it if I ever encounter to one, but until now I haven’t. I actually envy those who fight for one and live happily ever after. I want to be one of them. I personally love the movie Romeo and Juliet, the famous love story of all times, where two lovebirds put their life for each other in the name of LOVE. Is Love worth dying for? Yes it is it is worth dying for Jesus Christ who died for our sins so we may live.
My memory lane on falling in love is not a great one, seriously I have never truly be in love. I recall all the love I said to many male that came and pass into my life, I honestly say that not one single male soul that I love more than I love Jesus Christ. He put His live for me so I may live. It is not about being religious, but it is about my own experience about falling and being in love.
I love the two men in my life, my father and my baby brother, but it is the different kind of love. The love for Jesus Christ is an everlasting love and a love that cannot be broken with anything, it is the forever love kind of bonding. Some of you might not disagree with me, is it the same with the love for your father or siblings, well, it is like some of you said, it is not that I do not love my father or brother, but the love of GOD is the kind of love that will bring you a breath of fresh life every day and joy once you have experience it yourself.
I am writing this to express my own feelings about falling in love. I used to fall in love (that’s what I thought), but I am now cannot even remember how it felt anymore. I guess my memories of being in love down the memory lane were outcast by my heartbreak memory. Yes, falling in love hurt, because you have to fall to be in love. There is pain, but also there is happiness, there is sorrow but there is also joy, there is always two side of everything in life and there is also two side in falling in love. You must hurt to experience it, you must cry to want it; you will laugh when you remember it and you will miss it; because life itself won’t be exciting without love. Love what makes everything beautiful in life, love the word that describe not only relationship but also love is the reason why we life. Love is what makes the world goes around. So, I am ready to fall in love again, no matter how hard I have to cry all over again, no matter how hurt I have to experience the ache, I want to fall in love again. Love the number one title written on songs, poems and conversations all over the globe and universe, it is the language that is spoken by merely not only animal, human but also God speak the language. You don’t have to earn a degree to master it, life itself is a great place for you to experience and learn about love. Let’s fall in love all over again, let fill the whole earth with love, the sweet smelling perfume of love…Love come and get me because I am ready to be in love all over again. Like the lyrics below by Natalie Cole.
WHEN I FALL IN LOVE
When I fall in love
It would be forever
How I never be in love again
In a reckless world like this
Love is ended before it began
And too many moonlight kisses
Love is only a fool of your heart
We can never stop thinking and feeling about love, love is what makes the world goes around. Bringing you to a whole new world, to the most dazzling place you’ll ever be.
Don’t stop to find a love around you, the love that will cherish you and sang you the sweetest song of your life. Let’s fill the world with love and make the world a better place to live for us….
C’est la vie.
